FML

It's getting really hard at home to watch my dad. I feel like I try to ignore him, which I don't like at all. I kind of feel like I'm floating around in my own little world lately, especially since Eric and I broke up. I don't really talk to anyone about anything really, just mostly chit-chat stuff. I feel like I don't want to burden everyone with my problems, kind of.
Plus, I feel like I'm always too busy to hang out with people because I'm in summer school from 9am-12pm then I go to work at 1 or 2 til 5 or 6 so and then I have homework so I'm not really free during the weekdays, then when I am free to hang out everyone is busy. So then I'm sitting at home bored out of my mind struggling to hang out with one of my 5 friends. Its' getting irritating :(. I can't wait until summer school is over in 3 weeks so that I can have just work and that's it.
Things with Eric are kind of weird. I really miss him a lot. I wish things were easier. But they aren't....sooo oh well. What can you do? But this "it is what it is" attitude is starting to get to me I think. I have a feeling that when everything hits me, it's going to hit me really hard. I'm not looking forward to it. I need to stop ignoring everything around me and be more observant and more into it. I'm kind of just floating. I don't like it. I miss my friends and my family and I can't really explain what I'm feeling. When I am home, I usually just go into my room and shut my door and hang out until I leave again. No fun. I want to spend time with my dad but he's mostly just sleeping so I can hardly spend time with him. I mostly hang out when my grandparents or aunt are here visiting.

Good news is I'm doing fantastic in accounting class right now. I got an A on both tests so far, and we only have 3 (besides the final) so that's great! I actually am understanding the material this time and I think it's because of a lot of reasons. Like, the class is everyday so I don't really have time to forget anything; this is my only class so I don't have 4 other classes' worth of projects,homework and stress to worry about; I already took this class once and, even though I didn't understand anything the first time around, it's helping me because I already know the basics like vocabulary and the general ideas behind accounting; my teacher is amazing, and his first language is actually English so he doesn't have a weird accent that I have to try and learn from. He teaches in a really understandable way, which I love. I hope I get an A in the class! :)

After July 17 or 14 or something I'll finally have my summer vacation. :)
Next semester is going to be a doozy, though.
I'm in class on MWF from 11:00-3 and then on TTH from 11-3:15...which really is not that long but my classes are:
MGMT 300 - Communication in Business
MGMT 304 - Human Resource Management
MKTG 380 -Marketing Research
MKTG 477 - International Marketing
and then one more class that I'm not sure of because of technical issues with me taking the summer class at the community college instead of Chico State. Probably Finance. Yuck!!

Well. More later.