Baby, I'd give you my world
How can I when you wont' take it from me?

Fleetwood Mac - Go Your Own Way

We have nothing to fear
but fear itself?
Not pain?
Not Failure?
Not fatal tragedy?
Not the faulty units in this mad machinery?
Not the broken contacts in emotional chemistry?

Rush- The Weapon

See that line where the sky begins?
That's where we'll go.

Over it - Where the Sky Begins

Take what you want from me
It means nothing now
Take everything from me
It means nothing now

Not so easy to forgive
Harder to forget
Take what you want


Anberlin - Impossible

"Love is a question mark. not an exclamation point..."

"Love is a question mark, not an exclamation point. It can explain everything without calling on arguments whose strength as well as whose weakness is based on logic. A boy who is in love knows more about the universe and about creation than a scholar. Why do we have to die? Because I love you, my love. And why do parallel lines meet at infinity? What a question! It’s only because I love you, my love.

And it works. For them, for the boy and for the girl, prisoners of a magic circle, the answer seems completely valid. In their eyes there is a direct relationship between their adventure and the mysteries of the universe."

Elie Wiesel - "Day"

Rush- the Pass

"Proud swagger out of the school yard
Waiting for the world's applause
Rebel without a conscience
Martyr without a cause

Static on your frequency
Electrical storm in your veins
Raging at unreachable glory
Straining at invisible chains

And now you're trembling on a rocky ledge
Staring down into a heartless sea
Can't face life on a razor's edge
Nothing's what you thought it would be

All of us get lost in the darkness
Dreamers learn to steer by the stars
All of us do time in the gutter
Dreamers turn to look at the cars
Turn around and turn around and turn around
Turn around and walk the razor's edge
Don't turn your back
And slam the door on me

It's not as if this barricade
Blocks the only road
It's not as if you're all alone
In wanting to explode

Someone set a bad example
Made surrender seem all right
The act of a noble warrior
Who lost the will to fight

And now you're trembling on a rocky ledge
Staring down into a heartless sea
Done with life on a razor's edge
Nothing's what you thought it would be

No hero in your tragedy
No daring in your escape
No salutes for your surrender
Nothing noble in your fate
Christ, what have you done? "

Break Down

So I totally had a minor (slightly major) breakdown a few nights ago. I think that was my "rock bottom" because I feel so much better since then. I'm much more accepting of everything and small issues (that aren't even issues) aren't becoming huge deals anymore. I don't cry everyday at school anymore. I figured out if I take 3 winter classes and 3 summer classes I could finish this coming summer. I don't know about 3 winter classes, though. I have an advising appointment tomorrow in the morning so I'm going to see how ridiculous that seems to them and go from there. I would much rather suffer for a short period and finish early. I'd be 21 when I graduate!

I've been running every day in between classes and it is wearing me out. It makes me feel SO much better mentally because it gives me time to think and figure out stuff in my head but it makes me so tired and my muscles are killing me! Hopefully that goes away the more I do it. I've been running in the park so I guess I'll just have to go to the WREC center instead when it starts raining. I'm hoping to lose 10 lbs (at least) by Halloween! We'll see :D

Relationship is good...I think me not being a crazy bitch is helping us out a lot. :-P He's also trying really hard to and I see it, so that helps. I'm not upset about him having a 2nd job anymore. It's only 2 nights a week anyhow. Still don't like crazy drunk sluts at his 2nd job though... oh well. He's mine, not theirs. :)

Work has been the only thing that has been consistently good for the past few months. It's nice.

New Anberlin album came out yesterday and I absolutely adore it! To me, the theme of it kind of says, "here i am, take me or leave me." I like it.
New Trapt album on Oct. 12!! They've been releasing a couple songs here and there and I love them all! I cannot WAIT! I especially can't wait til they start touring. :D :D:D:D:D I'm going to drag Mac along with me...he said he's never been to a real concert before! I shall change that. :)